A Mother’s Lesson in Courage, Connection, and Letting Go of Fear

Motherhood is a balancing act — a dance between being you and being theirs.

It’s remembering that our little girls (and boys) are watching closely — how we rise, how we fall, how we speak to ourselves, and how we keep going.

This year, I did something brave. I got up on stage — again!

To be fully seen — to share your voice, your energy, your vulnerability — is one of the bravest things a person can do.

From Shy to Seen

As a child, I was quiet — the kind who’d rather listen than speak, who often felt like a little Starseed from another galaxy. I never quite fit into the noise of the world, so I’d lose myself in sound, music, and singing. Every sound & song representing a feeling. The frequencies would calm me, carrying me to another place entirely.

Since childhood, I’ve been deeply intuitive — clairaudient in many ways — attuned to the unseen and the unspoken.

And now, through both genetics and environment (and maybe even lineage), I see the same gifts, sensitivity, and uniqueness in my children.

Maybe that’s why I do the scary things — not because I’m fearless, but because I want them to see what courage really looks like.

Courage isn’t perfection. It’s showing up anyway.

If they can see that I can do it, they’ll believe they can too.
And they will.

The Stage (and the Sound)

This was my third year sharing my sound at the @musicstarmusicschool end-of-year concert. I performed a sound bath during intermission — and then, I sang.

I’d only had three days to prepare.

Leading up to the concert, I was confident. Clear. Ready to smash it. But just before my time on stage, things shifted. My lyric page seemed blank making it difficult to see my voice cues, I thought my mic wasn’t working, and suddenly the calm was gone.

Then Coco — my daughter — joined me on stage (unexpectedly!). It threw me off, and I found myself split between two worlds: performing and parenting. My voice trembled. My focus wavered. I became nervous — not because of the performance, but because I was balancing self-love and motherhood in real time.

When it ended, my four minutes on stage felt heavy. I walked off disappointed — knowing how well I’d rehearsed, how prepared I’d been — this just goes to show that no matter how prepared you think you may be, life will throw you off at times and give you what you didn’t expect. It’s about how you handle it and rise above it.

The Car Ride Home – Empathy & Epiphanies

Driving home with Aiden, Logan, and Charlie, I caught myself speaking negatively about my performance, out loud without realising it.

Without hesitation, they stopped me — offering the same compassion and encouragement I’ve spent years pouring into them.

And in that moment, I realised:
they are listening.

Every lesson about kindness, compassion, hope, faith, and love — all the words I thought were floating past them — had taken root.

In the quiet hum of the car, my children became my teachers. They reflected back every ounce of empathy and encouragement I’d ever given.

A little voice inside whispered,

“You’re raising great humans.”

Little Voices, Big Lessons

While being lost in my thoughts — my kids sensed my dismay and offered their honest (and hilarious) reviews:

✨ “It wasn’t perfect, but it was great! Even if you’re scared, do it every year so your braveness can grow.” — Logan
(This, from my shy 12-year-old, who recently faced a similar challenge with a school presentation. I’d said those same words to him. Just when you think they’re not listening… they always are.)

✨ “At least you looked pretty.” — Aiden
(Thank you, Addy — my 16-year-old stepson with Down Syndrome, who has the most incredible outlook on life, especially when it comes to music! His drumming that day on stage was amazing — he had the whole crowd moving!)

✨ “Mama, you’re so brave. I was smiling the whole time.” — Charlie
(My sweet, almost six-year-old — my biggest fan and gentle encourager.)

✨ “Mama, you were glowing & I love being on stage.” — Coco
(My only daughter — and the reason I do so much of what I do. She almost didn’t go up for her song earlier that day, but with her wonderful teacher’s encouragement, she did. And after that, we could barely get her off the stage! Coco, is my inspiration for every act of female empowerment — she is truly going to change the world.)

When your purpose for standing under those lights is to teach your children that they can do hard things — mission accomplished, right?

The Real Win

As mothers, we doubt ourselves constantly —
Are they eating enough? Drinking enough water? Getting enough sleep, exercise, love?

But sometimes, the truest sign that you’re doing okay is when your child mirrors back your own voice of love and reassurance.

When they refuse to let you talk down to yourself.
When they remind you of your own light.

That’s the real win.

My little cheer squad keeps me humble, grounded, and glowing.
They are the reason I keep getting up on that stage — in music, in motherhood, and in life.

Final Note: Sound, Self, and Soul

The song I performed was “What It Sound Like” by Huntrix — from the movie KPOP: Demon Hunters.

Yes, this 40-year-old is completely obsessed with it.

One of the film’s core messages is about being your true self — and healing the world through music, sound, and frequency.

And that’s exactly what this whole experience felt like:
A healing moment. A change in perception and a realisation of self-awareness.

A vibration of courage, growth, and self-love shared between a mother and her children.

And when your children are the ones helping you rise, expand, and show up again…
just know: you’re doing a great job and cant ask for more than that!